Outlook

My husband and I are facing life changing decisions.

The truth is that there are a number of children who call me grandma, and I love it.

With that title comes change. Slow at first, then all of a sudden it is like a steaming train quickly chugging down the track.

The calendar is counting down birthdays that have double digit numbers that add together near the number 100, sometimes more than 100, and 100 is the magic number that says you get to stay home and be a full time grandparent instead of going to work every day.

We are finding that going to work every day is getting in the way of our life.

We are finding that going to work every day to earn money to keep us going is not necessarily the only way to keep money coming into the household at this point.

For years we have tried to save for our old age, and as we look in the mirror we are starting to notice that our old age might be showing up.

So many questions--have we saved enough??

Will we have activities to fill our days??

Do we have the mental and physical capacity to keep going to work??

The thoughts are exciting and frightening at the same time.

So many changes on the horizon to become debt free and self sufficient.

We have been reminded that sometimes you have to take a giant leap of faith in reaching a goal, that two little jumps just will not take you across a large chasm.

On the other side of the chasm I see 16 little ones waiting with open arms to receive more of our time.

A giant leap of faith. Need to get all of my ducks and dollars all in a row.